Friday, April 16, 2010

I Surrender

I think almost any woman who has ever been pregnant can relate to the feelings I have been battling. There comes a time in pregnancy when I just feel that I am ready to have this baby. Approaching the due date is clouded by a whole mess of emotions: expectancy, excitement, anxiety, maybe a little fear... And based on my previous experience, sitting around while your due date passes you by multiplies those emotions to the "n"th degree!!! I've been secretly (or maybe not so secretly, but at least quietly) hoping that this baby does not hold out for weeks after she's due. I have come up with theories in my own mind of why I think it's plausible that baby girl makes a timely entrance - even dare I think it, early. I have 3 due dates in my head. There is the first one I got when calculating from the LMP (April 23), then the calculated one at my first ultra sound which read April 28th. But the one my doctor's office settled on and the one I've been really trying to keep in my head so not to be discouraged was from my second ultrasound. May 3rd. You can probably tell I've been thinking a lot about this- despite my best effort to not get wrapped up in a due date...

Tonight, before turning in to bed I just had to go peek in on Riley fast asleep. Don't get me wrong, I am all for letting sleeping babies lie, but tonight I just had to pick him up and hold him. As we sat in his dark room, swaying on the glider with his perfect little body cupped on my lap and sweet little head resting soundly on my chest I came to a turning point in my attitude. Every moment that I have with him before baby girl is born is to be cherished! This is the end of the era where my full attention is wrapped around Riley. Why am I wanting to rush into the role of mommy to two? It's time to stop and just smell the roses... and enjoy my little baby boy. If baby girl comes 10 days late, like my Riley did.. So be it. When she comes she will be a welcomed and cherished part of the family too but for now I choose not to overlook what I have as I await what is to come!

"Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in him." Psalm 62:5

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Gone Daddy Gone!

It's been a couple weeks now. Daddy's been gone and I have had to replace the daily interactions Riley used to get with a DVD that we made (thanks to the MAC- big plug! Love it!!) of John reading books to Riley. It's actually pretty great!! Riley brings me the remote control saying, "Daddy!? Daddy?!" So I turn on the TV and play him a couple of books from a good selection of maybe a dozen books. Riley climbs up on the couch and gleams from ear to ear as he watches Daddy during story time.

Here are a few pics of our last get together- a little going away party before my honey left.

Our romantic slow dance to complete the night! I am so in love with my husband!!

That was then....

This is now.

And now begins the crazy month prior to my due date with visits galore!! My brother and family are here at Luke for a course he's taking before they move to Italy. Yay for me!!! So I anticipate being busy hanging out with my sis-in-law and the kiddos for the next couple weeks! Then my mom is coming out in 2 weeks for my niece's baptism and to get prepped for baby Wilson coming. It'll be a whirlwind but because of this beautiful storm, time is flying by and daddy will be home before we know it!!!