I Surrender

I think almost any woman who has ever been pregnant can relate to the feelings I have been battling. There comes a time in pregnancy when I just feel that I am ready to have this baby. Approaching the due date is clouded by a whole mess of emotions: expectancy, excitement, anxiety, maybe a little fear... And based on my previous experience, sitting around while your due date passes you by multiplies those emotions to the "n"th degree!!! I've been secretly (or maybe not so secretly, but at least quietly) hoping that this baby does not hold out for weeks after she's due. I have come up with theories in my own mind of why I think it's plausible that baby girl makes a timely entrance - even dare I think it, early. I have 3 due dates in my head. There is the first one I got when calculating from the LMP (April 23), then the calculated one at my first ultra sound which read April 28th. But the one my doctor's office settled on and the one I've been really trying to keep in my head so not to be discouraged was from my second ultrasound. May 3rd. You can probably tell I've been thinking a lot about this- despite my best effort to not get wrapped up in a due date...

Tonight, before turning in to bed I just had to go peek in on Riley fast asleep. Don't get me wrong, I am all for letting sleeping babies lie, but tonight I just had to pick him up and hold him. As we sat in his dark room, swaying on the glider with his perfect little body cupped on my lap and sweet little head resting soundly on my chest I came to a turning point in my attitude. Every moment that I have with him before baby girl is born is to be cherished! This is the end of the era where my full attention is wrapped around Riley. Why am I wanting to rush into the role of mommy to two? It's time to stop and just smell the roses... and enjoy my little baby boy. If baby girl comes 10 days late, like my Riley did.. So be it. When she comes she will be a welcomed and cherished part of the family too but for now I choose not to overlook what I have as I await what is to come!

"Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in him." Psalm 62:5

Today

Today is kinda a big deal for both Riley and I. My lil monster is 18months today!! These last 6 months have certainly flown by in comparison to last year at this time (although that time seemed pretty quick too).


Here is my one man team (although not for too much longer since lil sis will be joining him soon).

"I've got a great idea!!! Nice, open field.. nice day- I'm going to play football!!"

"Blue-42.. Hut Hut Hike!"

"Go long!!"

"Running the slant route-- ooh ooh.. I'm open!! I'm open!!"

"...perfecting my best Heisman-- CBS Sports: check me out!!!"

Today I am 30 weeks pregnant.. Only 10 to go (pending the lil girl cooperates)! This time around has gone so much faster- perhaps something to do with the business of chasing an active toddler around! None-the-less, time is flying and I can't wait to see her! There are tons of changes to come but I'll reserve that for another blog in the near future.

Without further adieu, here I am at 30 weeks along.

IT'S A......

That's right!! We're having a little girl!!!

I am thrilled (someone to do crafts with me!!!) but John is absolutely terrified!

And since I love when my preggo friends post updated pics of themselves and their growing bellies.. here I am at 19 weeks.


P.S. I hate the "chubby" stage!

Occupied!

You may be wondering... what is occupied?

Lots of things!!!

My life- I keep thinking after one busy season that things are going to finally slow down but they don't! It just rolls right into more busyness! Summer is coming to a close (ok.. i realize it's October but remember I live in Arizona and the temps here are still in the 9o's) and we had a lot going on over the summer.. Trip to Texas, California, tons of Squadron functions, John's job change, the launch of my business website, and then squeezing in camping/hiking and rock climbing when ever we could! Now it's finally cooling off at night which is just lovely. Around this time is when I do love living in Arizona... Sure, I really miss the leaves turning colors and the smell of fall, but you really can't shake a stick at the always sunny and comfortably warm days with the cool evenings here. Now that fall is in sight, there are upcoming things that have already got us Wilson's spinning! Sigh... I guess busy is the new normal.

My occupation- Homemaker/Seamstress (kinda). The month of September really was a record setting month for me and my little sweat shop. I typically get a couple orders a month, which that and watching my Ri' keeps me busy enough. The month of September brought me twelve purse orders!!!! 12! I am going to be SUPER busy- we're talking work on weekends busy! I'm not complaining at all!! I just have to stay focused!

My uterus. That's right. Riley's going to be a big brother- if only he could understand how much his world will be turned upside-down!! I am somewhere between 10 and 11 weeks pregnant and am due late April/early May. John's convinced we'll have a Cinco de Mayo baby which he wants to name Pedro (or Pedrita prospectively). I had my second ultrasound today and got to see the baby's profile and the strong heart beat!! Here we go again!!!

I love being occupied!

Here's the 7 week blip. This is the picture mail that John got while he was up in Flagstaff hunting.

Here's today's US image. May not be very clear to you, but I can see the whole profile, jaw bone, arms, etc! The baby was very active for the camera- which is so fun to see!!

The Bump Factor...

Well, I'm 34 weeks pregnant today... that's 6 weeks till my ultra cool due date (8/8/08)- but I'm not so much a believer that Riley will have his birthday on August 8th... What's the likelihood- really? I do plan on walking like 5 miles the day before just in case he's ready to make his presentation to the world! Anyway, here are some progression pics through my pregnancy so far... I feel like in the last 3 weeks or so, I (or he) have really grown! I don't know where I have room to grow these last several weeks, but we will find out!

18 weeks

21 weeks

24 weeks

27 weeks


30 weeks

Today- 34 weeks